What is it all about?

 I am feeling so down this evening. I am thinking about ending it all. What is the point? But I am such a coward!!

Family:

Wills, Kat and the kids

Karen & Martin

Mark

Adam

Sara

Matthew

Friends:

Michel & Hervé

Mireille

Thierry & Jean-Pierre

Marie & Robert?

Leslie

Krystyna

and so called friends from CPE

They care but just from time to time. 

I am here alone, alone, alone...

I am fed up with all of this. What is it all about? Just milking the state for what I have paid in?

Why can't I make friends? I really don't know why. I can't commit!

Shit.